Letter-c Day 15

I chose John Mayer’s Waiting on the World to Change. It feels appropriate in so many ways today.  I’m over the top with social distancing, medical priorities, and political grandstanding. I miss hugs with my grandchildren and my friends.

It’s frustrating that COVID-19 testing takes all priority at the labs. Before this virus rampantly spread blood work only took a couple of days to have results.

I don’t need to go off on a tangent about our political state nor do I want the door open to make this a platform. I’m hoping that the polls will change this nightmare. Enough said.

“One, two, one, two, three
Me and all my friends
We’re all misunderstood
They say we stand for nothing and
There’s no way we ever could
Now we see everything that’s going wrong
With the world and those who lead it
We just feel like we don’t have the means
To rise above and beat it
t’s hard to beat the system
When we’re standing at a distance
So we keep waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change” ~ John Mayer
Yes, I’m disheartened.
The clock on the DVR showed time passing.  I hoped  for communication from my doctor’s office, but that didn’t happen which means now I have Saturday and Sunday to wade or wallow through as well.
I almost skipped blogging at all because I really am not in a good head place. I know patience… but like I told you already… fuck patience. I need my life back, the one that didn’t have a letter-c looming over it.
I tried working on my healing shawl but ended up making more mistakes than not. I had to take out 6 rows because I lost stitches that clearly showed. I tried reading Langston Hughes’ Not Without Laughter but I couldn’t focus.
The only bright part of the day was a video conference with Olyvia. She’s a ray of sunshine.
The gloomy weather, heavy downpours and the occasional lightning shows weren’t helping either. I can’t wait for this day to end, I’m ready for a new one. Maybe one with sunshine and some cheer.

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