DAY 3 Writing Challenge

Vic and I decided to enjoy a mid-afternoon siesta after a very long week. Macavity hopped up and snuggled against my leg but when I woke he had migrated to the center of the bed. I laughed because he was crosswise on the bed just like sleeping with a toddler. I’ve taken naps with my children and my grandchildren. They always ended up the wrong direction.

Macavity was sleeping so soundly I was able to take his picture and to slip out of bed for a restroom visit. He never even stirred when I returned to bed. I think this past week was exhausting to him as well.

After forty eight hours straight the wind finally calmed down. I think that also impacted our sleep more than realized. Macavity didn’t sleep in his usual spot by the window because the howling was crazy loud. I know it woke me quite a few times too!

Beltane Blessings to you and yours. Hope you enjoy !

Selling your home isn’t for the weak of heart, and the day’s plan.

I made a bacon, {saved 4 strips from last night’s BLT’s) pepper, fresh picked basil frittata topped with Mexican cheese to begin this day. The protein was great, so tasty. Added bonus, breakfast is already made for tomorrow. Woohoo.

The inspector for proof of occupancy came today. Almost made it through unscathed, we need to change one of our outlets to a gfi because it’s within six feet of our sink. Thankfully, he doesn’t charge to come back and check once it’s done. This worrying about cost involved is stressful. So looking forward to getting out of this money pit. Still no communication from the buyer’s realtor after the other inspector’s report.

Using zoom last night had some quirks initially but hopefully we have it all ironed out for next weeks writer’s meeting. Attendance was good and hopefully it will continue growing with additional interest. The format works well. Initially, I hated the online but I will say hanging out in my jams does have advantages. There’s also another factor too, once I’m in Vegas this will be my connection. Or maybe it will be time to walk away. Let someone else deal with the stress of micro-managers and people who pointedly make others uncomfortable. Lots of decisions.

I went through some more magazines, recycled them. Trash day was today and I filled it to the brim. This tossing and giving away isn’t as painful as it was. Though, I will say selling things on facebook marketplace is a total frigging waste of time. We have this large safe. I put it on there. I’ve gotten more hit on messages than any serious inquiries about the safe. It’s clear people are obnoxious. I wouldn’t waste someone’s time with stupid messages but apparently that’s not true of others.

I feel bad for Macavity, Vic grabbed the vacuum and he vanished. Poor baby connects vacuum with cat carrier. One of my criteria’s on our next place is minimal rugs. He doesn’t mind the broom or dust mop.

Olyvia, my granddaughter, and her competition dance team received highest overall score. Way to go girls! They have another competition this Saturday at 11:30am. I am so looking forward to being able to see her team compete once we’re there. She’s been dancing since she was two. Oh my, the girls were so adorable. They laid hula-hoops on the floor so they knew where to be. The end of the year recital is June 5th, I’m hoping we’ll be there in time.

A good shot of whiskey would have tasted pretty good a couple times this week but I know how easily I could slide back to my old crutch. I know I can’t drink all the stress away anymore than I could drink away an unhappy marriage. Like Justin and Chris, I’ve tried Jack, Jim, Jameson, Evans, Makers, and Crown… nothing took away the pain and unhappiness. I can’t drink the stress away but I can cleanse my space with lots of sage.

Did you know Beltane is on Saturday. Hard to believe it’s almost May. Beltane is a Celtic word which means ‘fires of Bel’ (Bel was a Celtic deity). It is a fire festival that celebrates of the coming of summer and the fertility of the coming year. “Emma Restall Orr, a modern day Druid, speaks of the ‘fertility of our personal creativity’. (Spirits of the Sacred Grove, pub. Thorsons, 1998, pg.110). She is referring to the need for active and creative lives. We need fertile minds for our work, our families and our interests.”

My attempt to write 30 poems in April went awry because of all the stress. I can’t let this crap keep ruining my life. I’ve been thinking a lot about how much this whole house situation has derailed me emotionally and add in some other additional stressors I need to focus on me. I agree with Emma, creativity has been lacking.

So I thought I would try 31 micro-fiction pieces for May. I’ve been scribbling in my journal a lot so taking it a notch shouldn’t be to challenging. I’ve already placed new salt on my altar and have candles ready for Saturday night’s fire ritual. I haven’t packed my tarot cards, a reading is overdue.

May 1st… time to replenish me…

May Day/ Beltane celebrates the start of the bright half of the year. One of four main festivals of Celtic spirituality, it’s a time to make merry.

https://www.spiritualityandpractice.com/practices/naming-the-days/view/15563/beltane-may-day

Selling your home isn’t for the weak at heart part 5 and other crap.

The original buyer who offered and then withdrew came back into the picture. Contracts are signed, building inspections are scheduled so it looks like we’re moving forward. The proof of occupancy inspection is scheduled. That one amuses me, they charge us sewer, water, and cat licenses in addition to the ridiculous amount of 1000 dollars per month for property taxes now they want another 80.00 to come inside and confirm we live here. Are we having fun yet?

The packing is still happening though a lot has hit Goodwill in this downsizing adventure. Today, after doing a banishing ritual of my mother-in-laws negative energy I packed all of her dishes, and books for Goodwill. I will not have her toxicity in our new home. Exorcism works for me.

For those of you who were blessed with awesome mother-in laws keep in mind there are equally as many if not more that were not. I was not. It breaks my heart how she treats my husband. She left him as a baby, has never developed any maternal instinct and continuously blames him for all of her alleged shortcomings since his birth and when she’s done with that she proceeds with all the things she feels he has failed according to her. It doesn’t matter in her eyes, he will always be a disappointment until she needs something. Which recently was not living alone but since she can’t control where that location is, he’s a failure again. How dare us to want Las Vegas over Edwardsville, Illinois.

Unfortunately, she’s not the only crap surrounding us. Vic and I both have had more than our share. His frustrations has been work related while mine has been someone who feels the need to micro-manage. I realize .. she may think her intentions are good but when the person repeatedly steps on my toes than I tend to get quite grumpy. Her intervention doesn’t change the fact that rules were actually put in place for a reason. There was a lot of discussion involved to establish a good working environment for all but when some one forgets why they’re in place because they’re self absorbed then situations get uncomfortable. This has occurred several times recently and my concerns were brushed aside because someone felt they knew better. Just to be clear they’re not part of the leadership team nor were they part of putting the rules in place so we could avoid situations like we had. I’m not known for being subtle or tactful but I am brutally honest and that does tend to annoy people. My grandmother always said if you can’t say something nice say nothing at all. My grandfather on the other hand said the truth ultimately prevails don’t sugar coat it just spit it out. There are times when both of their advice has prevailed. Last night and sleeping on it did nothing to change my feelings of being micro-managed. I heeded my grandfather’s advice and said it like it. You’ve pissed me off, period.

Apartment shopping is exhausting, I’m thinking right now a tent is looking pretty good. Budget versus actual space needed and still having funds left over to enjoy life. We’re so over robbing Peter to pay Paul. Living in NJ is just to frigging expensive.

I’m happy to say Macavity is getting used to the car, he doesn’t fuss once he is in the car. He even ate treats and drank water. All is left is using the litter box while the car is in motion. I’ve read a lot of people drug their cats but this isn’t a direction I want. I have never drugged my cats, I don’t want to start now especially since Macavity already has a heart condition. Saturday, he snuggled comfortably in my arms and fell asleep. That works for me. We’ll probably snooze a lot on the way to Vegas. Just to be safe, we’ve introduced a calming collar infused with lavender.

I’ve read a lot of different blogs and medical information about drugs and cat interaction. I prefer to continue with the direction we’re on by making traveling a familiar thing, his favorite things and lots of snuggling.

https://www.medicinenet.com/pets/cat-health/treating_behavior_problems_in_cats.htm

Anyway, our adventure begins just over a month away. I’m looking forward to starting over with Vic and Macavity.

#FOWC Design

Today’s word is “design.”

FOWC with Fandango — Design

Write a post using that word. It can be prose, poetry, fiction, non-fiction. It can be any length. It can be just a picture or a drawing if you want. No holds barred, so to speak.

Sometimes, I follow a pattern as I did with my colorful mandela. Other times I simply start crocheting and decide as I go like I did in the upper corner with my healing shawl     ( grays, creme and pink) and with the baby blanket (powder blue and medium blue) that I’m trying to finish before the baby comes. (A first time Mom often comes before the due date so I’m feeling a bit under the gun.)

What I love about crocheting is the creativity to design, but I also see it as part of my witchcraft practice. The crocheting itself is not a form of magic, I’m not doing knot magic or anything like that although it can be done.Rather, I use crocheting as a way to connect with Venus as a part of my planetary magic practice. Venus, among other things, rules the arts and crafts, particularly women’s crafts like fiber arts. This makes crocheting a devotional, meditative act that I use to further my relationship with this planet. I do some of my best thinking while that crochet hook whirls along.

Gardening involves designs because that determines what can grow where and what purpose it will serve. It’s another way I make connections with Gaia or as some call her Mother Earth. I feel gardening enhances my connection to the natural world, this communion is important between a witch and her plants is an inherently magical practice. I feel it applies well beyond gardening. I have always had a strong connection with trees,  and water.  So every time I go for a walk or a hike, spend time dabbling my toes in the ocean I’m building on those connections by becoming more familiar with the plants and the other parts of nature that I utilize in my life, I’m engaging in witchcraft. I’m always learning. Not only am I  learning consciously about nature but I’m  building an energetic bond and rapport between myself and this natural entity.

I’m sorry. I realize it’s probably more than you ever wanted to know about Wicca or Paganism or witchcraft but both prompts fit perfectly with my life style choices.

Each of us is like a seed, planted by the good gardener so we might grow into something majestic.”

I have rail planters around my deck, larger pots on the lower level patio, and in the front of my home as well. (1st. is oregano, 2nd is kale, 3rd is basil) There’s nothing more enjoyable to me than to pick fresh veggies just before using them. No chemicals, not additives completely organic because I even compost my own soil. Ultimately my life’s design is to leave this world a better place than when I arrived.

 

“Gardens are a form of autobiography.” ― Sydney Eddison

“The earth is a man’s garden to tend.” ― Lailah Gifty Akita

Letter c day 66

I wish my 66 was as entertaining as Route 66 was. In case, you don’t know the history behind my reference to it. My first introduction came in the Grapes of Wrath by John Steinbeck, he called it the mother road. Did you know part of Route 66 overlaps with the Trail of Tears, which documents the Cherokee Indians forced relocation in 1838 from their traditional homelands in the southern Appalachians.  I later learned the history of the road while traveling on it with my daughter Amanda. There was an information sign telling about Cyrus Avery (1871-1963), the Tulsa businessman, that championed the establishment of the highway and helped promote it, earning him the nickname “Father of Route 66.”  I vaguely remember a television show named Route 66 when I was young about two young men traveling on the infamous road with different people.My favorite and best exposure to Route 66 comes from Nat King Cole with his  version of the song Route 66.  Wow, looking for the clip on Youtube, I was surprised to see how many covers of the song there are.

If you ever plan to motor west
Travel my way
Take the highway that’s the best
Get your kicks on Route 66

It winds from Chicago to LA
More than two thousand miles all the way
Get your kicks on Route 66

Now you go through St. Louis
Joplin, Missouri
And Oklahoma City looks mighty pretty
You see Amarillo
Gallup, New Mexico
Flagstaff, Arizona
Don’t forget Winona
Kingman, Barstow, San Bernandino

Won’t you get hip to this timely tip
When you make that California trip
Get your kicks on Route 66

Won’t you get hip to this timely tip
When you make that California trip
Get your kicks on Route 66
Get your kicks on Route 66
Get your kicks on Route 66

I told you Route 66 was more interesting than my 66th day of the letter-c.
Reading:
I started reading Roald Dahl’s Switch Bitch. I’m enjoying the writing style immensely. His initial opening story was an added bonus with my own writing project. The story is based on diary entries not as brief as I’ve chosen my vignettes to be but equally as engaging.
Culinary and Cancer tools:
Today’s dining pleasure is already prepared, we’re having left-over meatballs but not on pasta (poor Vic) but on zucchini noodles. Yummy!  A side salad to compliment with cherry tomatoes from our garden. Perfect:)
While we’re on culinary, I’ll give you more cancer fighting tools
Olive oil is  anti-inflammatory and antibacterial but many people voice concerns about heating it. Snopes burst the myth, it’s not toxic.
Onions are also anti-inflammatory and antibacterial. I wish I could eat them, I love the flavor but they’re particularly brutal to me. The reflux isn’t controlled by meds.
Lammas or Lughnassadh
The Wiccan in me is looking forward to enjoying the first grain harvest recognition on August 1st.  The word lammas originates from loaf mass, which recognizes wheat. Lugh is the Celtic Sun King and God of Light. We’re grateful for the abundance of light for our crops. It’s also a sad reminder that the days are shortening and the growing season is going to end for another year. Make the most of the harvest, plan for the future.
This will be the first year, I won’t be tossing as much as possible into the freezer for the winter. We’re moving and frozen food doesn’t transport well. Nor is it crucial as it used to be with our ancestors.
I don’t know how many of you remember your parents canning and freezing for the winter. I learned from my grandmother and did it myself for my own family.  Yes, there was a lot of work involved but the payoff was incredible. Picked and canned or frozen right from the garden with no additional additives.
I know I’m making Irish soda bread for hubby and me. but I haven’t decided what else we will have with it. The moon will almost be full, that comes on August 3rd. I need to make sure I recharge my crystals and my tarot cards in my garden altar. I don’t know where my next altar will be yet. I trust Morrighan will guide my way.
And, once August arrives we’re much closer to the next round of diagnostics.  slower than molasses…
hmm,  but did you know it is good for us.

Wiccan Series

Part 8
Last year, I grabbed The Witching Hour by Silver Ravenwolf while I was at Barnes and Noble. Interesting book, if you haven’t read it, lots of practical advice in simple laymen terms.
 
I don’t know about you but nothing irritates me more than when an author pulls out these fancy smancy words and I have to grab a dictionary to read their book.
 
Okay, I’ll quit wandering off topic and get back to our topic
 
Meditations and witchcraft.
We’ve talked about people and energy fields and the vast opportunities these fields invite from change, reinventing, or simply clearing our spiritual bodies. We’ve discussed colors associated with these energy fields. However, not everyone is skilled enough to read these energy fields/ auras.
 
What I enjoyed reading was how Ms. Ravenwolf uses her skills to read people. She closes her eyes and thinks about the person in the present time and how they are acting at that moment. She then reaches out to the universe, and nature seeking a connection that correlates with the person at that moment in time. She would request images or mental pictures to understand what the person needed to solve their problem or why they were reacting as they are.
 
I thought that this was an interesting approach and maybe I could fine tune my psychic skills. My strengths before I was injured in 2011 was I could see colors around people easily. It terrified me at first but then I found it comforting because forewarned was always better than being caught off guard with negativity.
 
Then I had the brain injury and my ability to process changed drastically. I had to find a way to function in my own pain cycle and learn to focus my mind again. Meditation was very helpful to me although I never regained the visual imagery of color. Instead, my hearing became acuter. Because, my hearing is off the scales now it offers different opportunities. I hear the energy and then by studying the person’s actions, I make different assessments based on what I’ve read and used in the past about different auras.
 
Ravenwolf discussed having your body being prepared for the readings such as a spiritual bath, deep breathing or mental clearing. For me, mental clearing has served me well. I don’t want my personal baggage interfering with the person I’m reading. It’s not like we always have the time to prepare but doing the best we can matters.
 
Anyway back to Ravenwolf’s process, it appealed to me because I am very much in tune with nature. So I decided to try her path and see how it works. I focused on the person and said their full name three times and than inquired with the universe and nature to provide me with nature images that would be beneficial to that person. I scribbled everything that came to mind so I could study the images. She stressed not being judgmental, just go with what comes to mind during the visualization and meditation.
 
I talked with different friends in the craft and they agreed with her assessment as it being very shamanic and intuitive.
 
What I discovered in following this path my focus improved and my visualizations along with the energy I heard helped me understand the person and their needs much better and I was able to be more helpful when needed. I also discovered it helped me fine tune my relationships and eliminate the negative energy people draining me.
 
Like for instance this one person every time I followed her method and visualized with the universe’s help the image that came to mind after saying the person’s name was poison ivy, the shiny five leaves were distinct. This person always caused stress and I felt like my skin was irritated but no rash or visual sign appeared but once I ended our relationship I no longer had hypersensitive skin. I should have listened to my body’s warning signs but didn’t. My hearing felt overstimulated and I didn’t feel balanced. Yet I dismissed it because we’d been friends for years. I minimize my time with the person and take extra precautions for myself to minimize her effect on me .
 
The bottom ls to fine tune your psychic skills and the method that works best for you. Blessed be
 
The Witching Hour by Silver RavenWolf 2017 Pgs 88-90

Wiccan Series

Part 7

Do you find yourself conflicted? You’re not alone. All of us seek unity within ourselves and with heaven and earth. But getting there seems challenging if not impossible. How do we develop a keener understanding of our self?
 
That’s where understanding the impact of our actions is vital. Reflection on unity through meditation allows the watery realms of our emotions to become clearer. We react and feel for reasons that are frequently unclear because we get so overwhelmed with stress and life’s complications. Shining a light on our emotions and reactions will help us evolve into our fullest potential. We need to embrace our psychic powers, use the awareness to guide our responses and reactions. They’re a natural part of us and within our power to change because we are always in a constant cyclic state of growth and change. Sadly, many of us fear growth and evolution. That fear handicaps us.
 
Reality is growth and change are inevitable and unavoidable. We are here to live and experience life and to fear less so we can reach our fullest potential.
 
“The death of fear is in doing what you fear to do.” — Sequichie Comingdeer
 
“Magic is not always serious or solemn. It is a joyous celebration and merging with the life-force.” — Scott Cunningham.
 
“Good energy was never meant to be waisted on idiocy.” – Silver RavenWolf.
 
“Magic is natural. It is a harmonious movement of energies to create a needed change.” — Scott Cunningham.
 
“A witch is someone who has dedicated her life to learning about the connections between things. She studies the different cycles and her place in them. She learns how to use the energy in herself and in the world to make changes. And most of all, she tries to make the world a better place for herself and other people.” — Isobel Bird
 
Blessed be.

Wiccan Series

Part 6

As humans, we are a complicated and often disorganized mass of processes that include our brain, mind, heart, emotions, and body. Many of us seek the craft as a means to clear the clutter and free ourselves of the chaos unaware that true enlightenment begins inside and not by casting a spell. Don’t get me wrong spells can be fun and powerful but they don’t resolve deeper-seated issues.
 
Merriam-Webster defines psyche as the soul, mind, or personality of a person or group. For simplicity sake, let’s go with this metaphor an iceberg. It looks like a hunk of ice but reality it is encompassed with many layers that all tell a story. Humans are definitely complicated stories that continuously
evolve, sometimes smoothly and other times all over the place.
 
“The human psyche is also different layers:
1. The spirit-which is your higher self, a part of the world of the divine, and the ultimate source of inspiration and guidance.
2 The mental level which includes the conscious rational mind. ( I know in some of us rational is questionable.) It receives information from our emotional and instinctual level and directives from the spiritual level.
3. The astral being includes the emotional and instinctual level. At its highest level, it is conscious and engages the mind, at its lowest level it is unconscious and engages with life functions of the physical body.
4. The physical body includes the cerebrospinal and autonomic nervous systems and the digestive and glandular organs. They all interact with the emotional and instinctual level. Laymen’s terms the physical body is the instrument of your actions in the physical world.” ~ Denning and Phillips.
 
All of our psychic powers begin at the astral level, some individuals are more in touch function at a fairly high level are considered telepathic. The majority of us either interact with ordinary emotions or the imagination with signals that come from the middle astral level or from the material plane and receive their signals from the lower astral level.
 
With this noted those with more advanced psychic powers communicate through the energy of auras which emanates continually from the astral body. This is the basic instrument of telepathy, those lucky individuals can transmit and receive.
 
Other individuals gather information from the collective unconscious by emphasizing symbols and images. While other individuals gather information from projections of astral substance. Spirit rapping or spontaneous telekinesis are examples of astral projections.
 
What is important with all this information is our relationship with the material world. Consider this our bodies are the instruments of our actions in the material world and ultimately our manifestation. Consider all the information we gather daily through our five senses, our interactions in nature, and the cosmos everything is connected. It is a collective consciousness that continues to develop daily as Lena Kristin Olsen frequently reminds us in her morning posts. How do we perceive the day and how will we engage in that day?
 
The question to ask is our mind our worst enemy? That choice is ours, it can be friend or foe, depending on how we use it. Our mind can be a magickal place or a flaming habitat of hell. It is within us to heal our bodies and mind into a peaceful place by daily practice of meditation and communing with your deity or the goddess.
 
” Lead me from the unreal to the real! Lead me from darkness to light”~ The Upanishads
 
As you close your eyes this evening consider what your cosmic influence is really. How can you use your psychic skills to better your life and that of your loved ones? Blessed be.

Wiccan Series

Part 5

Do you ever feel so drained from dealing with other people? I sometimes feel like a wet mop dragged through the trash all day. Sadly, some people are like energy vampires literally sucking me dry. By day’s end, all I wanted to do is curl up into a ball.
 
Then I learned the importance of purging my own auric field. Yup, kinda like aural hygiene. I know it’s hard not to be a psychic sponge, we naturally want to help people and leave our auras open making us over-sensitive and vulnerable.
 
Auric self-defense is really easy and as the old saying goes an ounce of prevention is worth a pound of cure.
 
Speaking affirmations of inner divine protection several times a day helps your aura grow stronger and more powerful. I frequently say them before I speak with annoying family members, or when I have to do something stressful. Trust me I find it very helpful especially when I see my mother dearest 🙂
 
By speaking these affirmations I close my aura to the lower vibrational levels of mind and open myself to the Goddess.
 
This is my affirmation:
 
I am in control, I am one with the Goddess.
I am the only authority in my life
I am divinely protected by the light of the Goddess.
I am divinely protected by the light of my being.
I am divinely protected by my sisters and brothers of the craft.
I close off my aura and body of light
to the lower astral levels of mind and negativity
Now and forevermore.
Blessed be. So mote it be.
 
Feel free to incorporate into your daily life, I’m positive you will feel less stressed and have more energy.
 
“Sometimes you don’t realize your own strength until you come face to face with your greatest weakness.”~ Susan Gale.
 
“You never know how strong you are… until being strong is the only choice you have.”~ Cayla Mills.

Wiccan Series

Part 4 Psychic Awareness

Have you ever stood next to someone and feel a powerful, delightful vibration? You feel drawn to them and want to spend more time with them
Have you ever stood next to someone and gotten a chill up your spine or felt repulsed? Oh yeah, too many times.
Can you tell immediately that you like someone or not?
Have you ever felt someone was standing to close and you had moved back instantly without knowing why?
 
This psychic energy or prana energy is in layman terms our sixth sense. It affects each of us differently. “The sixth sense is another term for extrasensory perception. Extrasensory perception (ESP) involves the reception of information not gained through the recognized senses and not internally originated.”~ Wikipedia. I’ve read books where the author stresses psychic energy and others that stress it is prana energy which is why I’ve noted both. According to Susan Shumsky, “Prana is the power within all things from basic particles to complex life forms. As the finest vital force in everything, prana manifests on the physical plane as motion and on the mental plane as thought. Prana is in the air, yet it is not oxygen or any other physical constituent. All living things absorb prana with every breath.” However, without prana, no organism would exist. Prana is life itself. Our bodies are alive because of prana. This energy is drained by our every thought, word, and deed and continuously replenished as well.
 
Psychic skills involve sensing or reading energy and then interpreting it without using the physical senses. This awareness is achieved directly from the subject matter and not by telepathy from the mind of another. Sensory details are important because they trigger the unconscious mind.
 
Learning to fine-tune the way our body and mind process information around us expands our well-being and our witchcraft skills.
 
For me, my sixth sense has protected me many times in my life. Some people refer to that feeling as a gut feeling but I always say it’s my sixth sense. I trust it instinctively now. Learning to trust the energy you sense will enrich your skills.
 
I’m sure there are people in this group that are more knowledgeable on prana energy than me and I would love for you to join in on the conversation. How do you use it to enhance your skills?
 
Blessed be.