I woke many times during the night. I listened to the sounds of the night before the pitter- patter of the rain began in the early morning hours. So it makes sense that Otis Redding’s Sitting on the Dock of the Bay. Contemplation about the journey ahead and the journeys behind me. “Contemplation seems to be about the only luxury that costs nothing.” ― Dodie Smith.  My life appears to be dwelling with the different letter-c’s.

Now is the time to ponder before the tests and treatment plan begins. Cancer requires you to be totally in to the game. Half-efforts and denial aren’t productive in life or with cancer.  “Never hide things from hardcore thinkers. They get more aggravated, more provoked by confusion than the most painful truths.” Criss Jami.  I’m lucky my doctor understood this part of my nature.  He gave it to me straight.

I’m a firm believer that knowledge is power. Muddy water, let stand, becomes clear.” ― Lao Tzu