Stream of Consciousness

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Your Friday prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is “song.” First, find a picture–the closest one to you. Your prompt is the title and/or the lyrics of the first song that comes to mind when you look at the picture. Have fun!

The Friday Reminder and Prompt for #SoCS July 11/2020

I’m looking at seagull swooping downward. I took the picture of the gull at Cape May dive bombing to grab a bag of corn chips lying next to my sleeping husband. My daughter and I were walking along the water’s edge. The bird never woke my husband in his daring raid. I wish I had been that daring in my life.

I had the picture blown up and framed. It hangs above our fireplace. Whenever I look at the picture I’m reminded of that beautiful day with my husband and daughter and how determined the seagull was to have that bag of corn chips.

The song that came to mine was Leonard’s Cohen’s Bird on a Wire.

Lyrics
Like a bird on the wire
Like a drunk in a midnight choir
I have tried in my way to be free
Like a worm on a hook
Like a knight from some old-fashioned book
I have saved all my ribbons for thee
If I, if I have been unkind
I hope that you can just let it go by
If I, if I have been untrue
I hope you know it was never to you
For like a baby, stillborn
Like a beast with his horn
I have torn everyone who reached out for me
But I swear by this song
And by all that I have done wrong
I will make it all up to thee
I saw a beggar leaning on his wooden crutch
He said to me, “you must not ask for so much”
And a pretty woman leaning in her darkened door
She cried to me, “hey, why not ask for more?”
Oh, like a bird on the wire
Like a drunk in a midnight choir
I have tried in my way to be free
Source: LyricFind
Songwriters: Leonard Cohen
Bird on the Wire lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
But then I think of all the things in life I regret. A seagull’s life is very enviable because they don’t have regrets maybe missed opportunities but nothing like their human counterparts.
I think back to when I felt like a worm on a hook, squirming to get away. I remember the eyes of my sons when I took them away from their father and the tears they shed. I went back knowing in my heart that it was the biggest mistake ever.  My departure did upset my first husband enough that he didn’t physically hurt me for a long time. I think it scared him that he almost lost his sons. Unfortunately, it didn’t take long for the verbal onslaught to begin again. I stayed until my youngest finished college. I helped my husband get back on his feet after his heart attack but then I did what I needed for me. I decided why not ask for???
Happiness is worth it. I’m loved and I love in return.
“Once you make a decision, the universe conspires to make it happen.”
― Ralph Waldo Emerson

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